TRUE BLUE smurfmouse, otherwise known as YUE. Has a thing for the blue nose friends :)
8th DEC is the day. Was from NTU CBC & an ITS lab rat. DBSK.BIG BANG.2NE1.SUJU.SNSD.2PM.RUNNING MAN are hearts.
" when will i see the end of the road PT2: well these few days have been a killer for me...think i fell asleep at 4 last night? i dunno had this unexplainable courage to seek the truth..msg JQ but it was late alrdy..he wanted to slp, so i said we'll tok again..he haf yet to msg me again.. for a moment last night i tot everything will soon see light..., everything will have a closure, mayb not a satisfactory one, but a closure is still a closure right? keen to know the truth, fear of knowing the truth...but looks like god has another agenda in mind. to others whatever i rem is insignificant..but to me, every action, words mean so~ much..i want to love myself, i want to give myself the courage to see life from another perspective, i haf been trying to do that for the past 3 yrs now..now it became too tiring to try anymore..esp. after last night..i lost all courage NUMB.. i'm like desperately trying to hold on to water with my hands, stubbornly trying when i know its impossible..stupidly trying though all the water had alrdy evaporated.. welcome to my world- the loser nation...my prelim results will just further confirm my stupidity. "
i wrote this entry about a yr plus ago. tonight, i cant fall asleep again. that same kind of heart-wrench. but for a different reason.
