TRUE BLUE smurfmouse, otherwise known as YUE. Has a thing for the blue nose friends :)
8th DEC is the day. Was from NTU CBC & an ITS lab rat. DBSK.BIG BANG.2NE1.SUJU.SNSD.2PM.RUNNING MAN are hearts.
i have gotten used to being alone during the weekdays cos school has been really hectic. but for the first time in 4 years, i felt the same feeling i experienced then when i was single and alone. only that today was far worse than it used to be.
i've realised that the day that i fell and injured my knee, was the day that i lost my passion in touch rugby. and i have been living without a passion in life for about 2 years. there's nothing to keep me happy, to keep me going in life. the reason why i felt so horrible today, was because i realised, i no longer have guides to keep me occupied, no more touch to keep me happy & busy, no more twin to accompany me, no more nothing.
two days ago, was the first time i went to have a serious jog. and it made me feel bad that i havent been exercising much. i lost touch with keeping fit, and gained lots of weight. i felt breathless when i ran, and my left knee felt disconnected with the rest of my body.
today i went for a long walk and jog around my estate. i felt relief during that short period of time, all i can sense is the pumping of my heart, the music from my mp3, and the heat from the weather. i guess reality kind of sets in after the exercise. this is depressing, especially so when the dateline of S/U of modules is nearing, and i felt lost on which module to S/U cos all seems bad enough to harm my gpa.
